I don’t know why I decided today was the day I was going to share this. But I just wanted to.
Maybe because these times with Kendall in the ICU are some of the “dark times” i reference in the vlog I’m inserting below. Or maybe just because i’m sleep deprived and there is no rhyme or reason to anything i’m doing right now.
Anyways –
as a quick Kendall update (and if you want more up to the minute ones – be sure you have “liked” her page on facebook – there’s a link over to the right in the sidebar if you’re on a computer and on your mobile, scroll down below this post –
She is not septic – and that’s a very good thing! That’s what usually makes her go tumbling downhill head over heels and end up intubated and on all the pressers, etc. She does have bugs growing out of the blood we take from her central line – but not out of her peripheral veins – so that means she is not even bacteremic (blood infection) – which is what the suspicion was yesterday. And to look at her – she is definitely holding her own. But even with all this “good” news, and a pretty happy Kendall, it still just wasn’t adding up to me. Something wasn’t quite right. Out of that weird sense moms have, I asked them to please run a urine culture. I was met with resistance and all kinds of reasons we didn’t need to do that – but I asked if they would please just do it to shut me up.
And whaddya know??? She sure enough has a nasty UTI as well. And THAT makes much more sense to how she is acting and how/why she got so sick so fast. So now we are working on chasing that information and getting the right antibiotics for that bug also. Overall she still remains in good spirits and is not currently trying to pull any scary stuff. I am VERY grateful for that.
I am grateful for a lot of things – some of them are harder to put into words than others. I am grateful for the love and support from so many friends and family who lift me and my family up during these times when our lives are thrown upside down. I am grateful for the relaxation and peace of my trip last week and that Kendall waited until after I was home to pull this craziness! I am grateful for every breath of life I am blessed to live and I am grateful for the hard lessons I have learned this past year.
So …
there’s that. I realize it probably doesn’t make sense, and honestly i haven’t re-watched it since i made it so it probably REALLY doesn’t make sense.
But that’s what was on my mind today. There might be more later. You never know. So check back often.
And if you want me to talk more about the swimming in the bat cave experience, let me know!
Peace out party people. I’ll try to have a more make sense blog post later.
Terra.