I’ve been thinking a lot about life lately.
About how it’s a journey.
About how the last year has felt like the biggest pause button, and yet the biggest magnifying glass into the process of that journey.
You know, nice light stuff like that.
And it’s made me think of what I’m DOING with my life, and what is the legacy I’m passing on to my beautiful Special K’s through that, and how do I tell all of you who come read this little blog still about the amazing gift that life is, and how can we make sure that we live every single minute of it that we are blessed with to the fullest?
As I look back on the last 10-12 years of my life (or maybe the whole thing? 19? 24? When did I become “most me”? When I was married? When I became a momma? When I went through the depths of despair during the most stressful and heartbreaking period of my life? I don’t know…I guess the answer is that I have always been me, and I am always becoming me. So we will go with 10 years. That sounds like a manageable number for one blog post.)
I realized that perhaps one of the biggest gifts that came from the hardest years I’ve ever endured is to realize that life – every day – even the boring ones (maybe especially the boring ones) are a gift.
What are you doing with that gift?
Are you waiting for something to come happen to you? For you? ( Three you?)
Are you surviving? Barely?
Are you staying safe?
Are you losing your mind at the monotony?
Are you anxious? Stressed? Depressed?
If you’re human, you’re probably a mixture of all of the above. If there were a “23 and me” for emotions, you might be surprised by what the results were. Maybe you wouldn’t.
Here’s the thing: wherever you are, whatever you’re feeling, whatever you’re doing (or not doing) – It’s all OK. You don’t need my permission for that, but there it is. I just want you to know that it’s ok because I know there’s so many messages bombarding us daily that who and how we are is “wrong” somehow. Think this way, don’t say that, be here, wear this….it’s exhausting. I know, I feel it too.
But what I’ve been thinking about lately is what comes next.
What happens after you allow yourself to wallow in the feelings and the fears…
What’s next?
You keep waiting? Hoping? Wishing on a shooting star that something – ANYTHING – will happen?
In the words of Dr. Phil –
“How’s that working out for ya?”
Listen – if it’s working out really well for you – then AWESOME! That’s actually great! You’ve figured out the secret to life in a pandemic. And that is no easy feat. So go on witcha bad self and do you, boo. I’ll cheer you on however you need! And I mean that sincerely!
But for those who haven’t found that magic button yet, then I have a word for you.
GO DO SOMETHING.
That’s it. That’s today’s Ted Talk.
Go DO something.
Do something that let’s you feel the sun on your face, makes you raise your arms in exhilaration, makes you want to spin/dance/move and feel that feeling that you remember from the last time you felt really really ALIVE. Go do it. Do it because you need it, because you raising your vibration helps raise the vibration of the people around you, and maybe, just maybe, we can start a wave.
Does anyone remember a long time ago when we used to be able to go to a professional sporting event, and we would sit in these tiny little seats next to other strangers and we would have those strangers pass us lukewarm hotdogs and lukewarm beers down a whole row that we would order from some other stranger who wore that food in a box around his body and walked around the whole stadium like that? And we ate those expensive hotdogs and drank that skunky beer and cheered for our team and soaked up the summer weather and we LIVED???
And if you were really lucky – some 13 or 14 year old kids would emphatically spend the first couple innings trying to start “the wave” – and eventually their section caught on, and then other people caught on next to them, and around and around it would go…..
man those were the days…..
But the wave. That’s the point I’m making.
The wave caught on because it spread from one person to the next to the next.
That’s what happens when you decide to start LIVING again.
You stand up and throw your arms up and cheer.
Repeat.
Repeat.
Repeat.
Then someone in the row next to you does it with you.
Then a few more people around you.
Pretty soon you’ve got a lot more people doing it with you.
You did it.
You did SOMETHING.
You created momentum. You created a moment.
You Lived.
You LIVED….
The world needs more of that right now.
What can you do to Live?
What wave can you start?
It doesn’t have to be hugenourmous to start with.
It just has to be action. Movement. Momentum.
I have a new song obsession.
It’s an old song actually.
But the words are like, hitting me, man.
“oh my my, honey everybody dies
but you got, you got to seethat you can live your life walking in a straight line
but it’s more than just A to B.
– Matt Hires –
Just go listen to it.
I mean LISTEN to it.
Time can be your dearest friend, or time can be a bandit.
What’s it gonna be for you?
Are you gonna live your life in just that straight line? Waiting for something to happen to you?
or are you ready to go Make a Wave?
Take a chance on you.
Give yourself the gift of your own life.
That might look different for everyone – my gift won’t be the same as yours is.
But please do yourself a solid and think about it.
“It’s the traveling, not the road that gets you there.”
I don’t know.
This is rambly, I guess I’m rusty from blogging.
But it’s on my mind and heart today. So I wanted to share it here.
Go get busy living.
It’s the only way I know how.
Winter’s grip is loosening, and spring is coming.
Keep growing, keep flowing.
I love you, and I’m so glad you’re here.
XO,
T.