Hangin’ In There.

*tap tap*

Is this thing on? Is anyone still out there?

I know it’s been a while. And a while more before that.

Someday i’m sure i will be able to write about where i’ve been the past, oh, year I guess. But most days, it’s just really really hard to put this all into words. The stress. The pain. The feeling of being utterly overwhelmed by life most days. But for now, it’s just this. Hangin in and keepin on.

And today, the dam of emotions is threatening to break. I got an email this morning that if I don’t renew my domain and web service in the next seven days, terra talking will cease to exist.And the thought of this is bringing me to tears. No I haven’t written in a while – but every day my heart longs to. Writing is just who i am, how i am. Looking back on my old blogs reminds me that once upon a time i was a good mommy, one who wasn’t stressed about money all the time, didn’t feel at the end of her rope all the time, was capable of handling almost anything life threw her way. The thought of losing all these written journals about my life, Kendall’s journey, the memories…..it literally brings me to tears.

I am currently looking for a job that will allow me to work hours that work with my kids’ schedules, and that will hopefully be flexible and understanding enough with the unknowns of Kendalls random hospitalizations that I won’t have to bounce from job to job.  Being a mommy (and a super skilled nurse to Kendall) is the best job I have ever had but wow, the pay is really really low!   If you know of anything – let me know! But the truth of the matter is – I am beyond broke right now, and even though i hate doing this – I am coming here to ask you for help. So many of you have so graciously given over the past few years and I literally hate being here again right now. I do not in any way expect this help, but i’ve learned if you don’t ask, no one will know. So –I need to come up with $200 for my website fees in the next six days. If you love terra talking even one fourth as much as I do and don’t want it to go away – i’d be honored to have your help.
The easiest way would be to send a couple bucks through paypal if you are able and willing (and believe me, i won’t be upset if you can’t!) I’ll put my link down below.

The way the link works is that you will be directed to the paypal website, you do a quick sign up for a paypal account if you don’t have one (basically it asks for your name and email address), and then you can send money from an existing paypal account or use a debit/credit card.
As soon as I have enough to make the payment, I’ll take the link down.

I just want to thank you in advance if you are able to send even a dollar or two. My heart is humbled to even have to ask for this help. But i am so blessed to be surrounded by such an amazing and supportive tribe, and I hope you know that I couldn’t do this without all of you.

I promise and pledge that if we are able to save Terra Talking,I will write more. Every day and twice on Tuesdays. I will find my funny voice again and I will share it here.
For right now, that’s about all I have to say about that.

Thank you, all of you.

Keep on Keeping On

 

me.

 

You guys are all amazing. Thank you from the very bottom of heart for helping keep my little blog around. There are not enough words to express my gratitude.