Ok. Let’s get a few things straight.
I’m not really a girly girl. the only barbie I ever had as a kid i cut its hair off, marked her face up with a black sharpie, and hung her from my ceiling fan and used her as the light pull thingy. I literally had allergic reactions to the pink dress my mother
demanded coerced forced me to wear. And cheesy platitudes about life put on a poster with sunflowers or kittens or children dressed up in too-big clothing or dressed up as vegetables or floral arrangements annoy the living snot out of me.
challenge this week about how do you stay positive in the face of something that sometimes brings you down had this quote from Helen Keller as its lead-in:
Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see the shadows.
And of course, my first thought was to explore how (or rather IF) I am actually able to maintain a positive outlook in spite of some of what we deal with here sometimes. Because sometimes I know I don’t.
But then I thought – let’s just hold the phone here for a second. Helen Keller was blind. I do not pretend to be an expert on her medical issues (although I AM an expert on many other medical issues! 😉 ), but even if we say she had SOME sight – ALL SHE COULD SEE WAS SHADOWS.
If she had her face to the sunshine, it would have blocked out any shred of anything she may have been able to see.
So really, I am just baffled now. And all verklempt. I don’t know WHAT to write about with regard to how I stay positive. I keep getting distracted by trying to figure out what the heck HK meant. Was it just part of a feel-good speech she gave to a bunch of spoiled college students? Was it really how she learned how to see? I have no idea. and while I would love to get sidetracked into google-land trying to figure it out, I do actually have a LOT of other important things to do. Like make sure my children are clothed and lunched up before sending them out the door to freeze at the bus stop. Or finish “mystery project involving drywall spackle and saltwater drinks” this week.
And this is why I should not drink coffee (or spray paint things without opening the door) after 3 pm. My brain is in about 9023 places, not a single one of them leading to any kind of coherent or reading worthy thought. It could also be the cold. I can’t feel my toes at the moment. This apparently makes me incapable of staying on track. Wait, did I have a track?
I think I did.
The point being – we all need more feel-good posters hung up in our bedrooms, reminding us to keep our faces to the sunshine (WEAR SUNSCREEN THOUGH!), enjoy the moments of life that take our breaths away, just breathe, don’t sweat the small stuff, and hang in there. It sure beats the one that would make more sense: Don’t bother getting out of bed. You will be in pain somewhere at some point today, something will go wrong with your car your job your health or your house, and you will more than likely wish you had just stayed in that nice warm bed at least 34 times before lunch.
Like I said – Polly-bleepin-anna.
But actually – I’m in a really good mood today. I just don’t have any good answers about how to face the sunshine. Cause sometimes there just isn’t any. It’s rainy or windy or freezing or all of the above and you just tuck your head into the wind and move forward. maybe that’s just what kind of weather I’m in right now. Just bunker down and survive. Deal with the aftermath of the storm after the storm.
And I’m takin’ Helen and her sunburnt face and my hairless tattooed up barbie doll with me.
But you can keep that fugly pink dress.
I’ll see you on the flip side.
with pictures of the SURPRISSSSSEEEE!!!!!
(and i promise – i really am in a GREAT mood! i just need some chips and french onion dip. good thing I have some in the fridge!)