I have a love/hate, push/pull, attract/repel relationship with NORMAL. My whole life I have tried my very hardest to not be NORMAL, average, plain jane, blend in with the crowd, follow the sheeple. Not that I am not, by many people’s standards, some semblance of normal, but in my own mind, I’m doing things my …
The weather’s bound to change! Or the situation as the case may be. Sure enough, as soon as I hit publish on my last whiney post, in walks Ben, who drove for almost 4 hours (round trip) to come be with me and kendall when he got my text about our craptapular morning. that helped …
Consider yourselves duly warned, and feel free to just shut your browser window now, because i am sure this will not be pretty. Today has just sucked. It started at 1 am with Kendall dropping her sats suddenly in the middle of a pretty good sleep, and when i got to her bedside she was …
Is the drive I think. Driving away from home, towards the hospital. Leaving half of my heart at home with the three who are so excited to see me, thinking i am home for good with kendall, and driving towards the other part of my heart, laying in her hospital crib, yanking her tube out …
Kendall was only 13 days away from her longest “not in the hospital” streak ever. And it ended today. She is doing pretty good right now. She isn’t in distress,she is breathing on her own, no oxygen. But she is just…..something. She is choking on her bottles, and then puking up most of what she …
